I think of the Jews. I wish people would get over the reason they tortured them was stupid and not something that should affect our lives. I mean we didn't do it after all and even our ancestors didn't do it. Maybe one's countrymen have, but people shouldn't have to die today. I hate it because they suck up to those with European blood yet I feel tortured by Helena Bonham Carter knowing me from online and that I'm half Chinese blood, half Chinese-Indonesian. That's something no one cares about.
We need to get over this so stars don't represent us having to chore for Jews today who don't experience the racism of their ancestors anymore than others who've had bad treatment from whites. You'd be surprised.
Monday, May 16, 2011
As Polite as Possible
It's good to be as polite as possible and know what you're doing. If someone made every effort to sound polite of an issue is okay on their behalf. You might think of a different way to say it, but you don't know if it would have made sense that way initially since you have that rock to fall on knowing what it is.
I'm going to the dentist.
I can't wait until it's over, but it's not that bad. I just want to be home. I need enough sleep for Disney tomorrow. I see the psychiatrist on Friday. I wonder if this time we'll start lowering my medicine. He said to do it gradually and he would help me.
Safe Haven
Well, Europe seems to serve Tim Burton and Johnny Depp well. I would find it interesting to move to Europe and be with a husband or boyfriend there. It seems dangerous to be in the U.S. Europe makes people feel more served. There's good food. It's a fairer land. They have strong roots in culture, like the way they talk and eat.
Tim Burton & Europe
He thinks the answer is to just be European instead of do bad things from being sad you're from America instead of Europe.
I notice he's one to see what something is rather than what the intentions and possibilities are.
I notice he's one to see what something is rather than what the intentions and possibilities are.
Hair
The color and texture can get fairer even if you start with something lightly less so. It takes longer if it's further away from the goal, but the goal is attainable. For instance, a nice shower will freshen up any look and so will a walk in the sun with sunblock on. Everyone should take advantage of sunblock. You still get healthy from the sun but are guarded from the UV rays more.
Race
I feel I'm told to be played down. I realize that boys come in all shapes and sizes, but which kinds of girls do which? Sometimes, you need someone really attractive just for the environment. It always works out that way I feel. I cannot take the race card. I work extra hard to be good and who I am. Sometimes, I flub, but it's never my fault in thinking. I just want to get what I deserve from doing the right things and being successful. The world is all about people who were wronged and enjoyed a different life than the idea, do good and you'll not be done wrong. I had some significant issues in people wanting me to be bad instead of Ms. Perfect. So I am treated worse in truly joking around and things people can tell about me that I don't want them to know. So, I tried to change, but things still aren't quite the same. I guess they sorta are going better.
What kind of stereotype can I be? Do I qualify, to be someone who is attractive rather than like some cool fat chick? Some people need both skinny and fat people to make up their life. I just see how people come. I try to get them fit into a better way for themselves. I didn't cause their flaws and I don't try to have them keep them. It's never funny. Not in any way.
I'm not really an extreme in my own race compared to white. So, I'm not really the one who's inherently all about being darker. I like things like the white culture and that's all I know really. I respect and have interest in various ways other cultures are. I guess I can be the multiculturally accepted one.
What kind of stereotype can I be? Do I qualify, to be someone who is attractive rather than like some cool fat chick? Some people need both skinny and fat people to make up their life. I just see how people come. I try to get them fit into a better way for themselves. I didn't cause their flaws and I don't try to have them keep them. It's never funny. Not in any way.
I'm not really an extreme in my own race compared to white. So, I'm not really the one who's inherently all about being darker. I like things like the white culture and that's all I know really. I respect and have interest in various ways other cultures are. I guess I can be the multiculturally accepted one.
Music - Coincidence
So, I was a piano major at Loyola and had a nice young female teacher who teaches kids there at night, only a few getting her. I suppose I really wowed them with my musical skills and confidence. It was stressful because I didn't make the first audition. I did make their third one. My mom said it was my test scores that went up. I wish I just tried for singing. I want to be a film actress and sing like Julie Andrews. My voice still isn't perfect. I wish I never was in the choir. I suppose in college it is necessary. Or, I could have done choir plus voice lessons to get ready for ensemble work. I'm too old to be in college, but I will start at a nice community college nearby that has the classes for the music major there. I already have half of my theory done. I just have two of those left.
What happened was I only got a C my second semester in piano and was scolded about my singing with no feeling, something my voice teacher didn't tell me. We have exams in front of other teachers. I was called to the office and told I was too quiet to be a music education major. I was told not to major in piano nor to take voice. How gay is that? How gay does that sound? I got all honest As my first semester in music other than a B+ in voice. I was also in honors, just barely got in. I didn't have good letters from teachers since I moved high schools a couple times.
What happened was I only got a C my second semester in piano and was scolded about my singing with no feeling, something my voice teacher didn't tell me. We have exams in front of other teachers. I was called to the office and told I was too quiet to be a music education major. I was told not to major in piano nor to take voice. How gay is that? How gay does that sound? I got all honest As my first semester in music other than a B+ in voice. I was also in honors, just barely got in. I didn't have good letters from teachers since I moved high schools a couple times.
Organ
When we left Florida, north and south east coast Florida, my piano teacher said to never stop playing piano and to take on organ. I was in choir, too. I was considered a quiet person and singer. *shrugs*
We called someone when we moved, but she never answered back and we didn't really find anyone else there. That's not nice. My mom is Chinese-Indonesian. I didn't have the option to go to a big conservatory with my newfound love for good organ music.. We found her later and she gave me lessons after meeting me. I used to play for the church before she came.
We called someone when we moved, but she never answered back and we didn't really find anyone else there. That's not nice. My mom is Chinese-Indonesian. I didn't have the option to go to a big conservatory with my newfound love for good organ music.. We found her later and she gave me lessons after meeting me. I used to play for the church before she came.
Tim Burton
I guess Tim Burton is happy about me though I am 1|2 Chinese-Indonesian. I didn't have blonde hair, but my mom didn't do anything that would make it impossible for me to be more European since she respects the white culture.
Tim Burton is comfortable around people from places like he lived: L.A. and probably Florida. I really lived there though and was able to succeed.
The truth is my dad simply has every culture imaginable, and my mom's culture have Indonesian as Chinese-Indonesian is so cool! She was a fairer petite one, like from a fairytale if you can see it in that way.
Tim Burton can't find someone he more comfortable with. I think I have all the British ethnicities + German, French, and Dutch. The Chinese-Indonesian is influenced very much by the Dutch. I also have Native American indian, but sometimes they aren't sure if that's true. I did hear they made it up. It's nothing to worry about. I could do anything. I am thankful for who I am, though, and wouldn't have it any other way.
Being totally one thing seems to be a bigger gift. I notice the German, French, etc. people are quite quiet, though. I don't know what makes them talk. They think differently even if they are very Irish or English maybe.
That's too bad. I think Tim Burton and Johnny Depp realize I am the crème de la crème.
Tim Burton is comfortable around people from places like he lived: L.A. and probably Florida. I really lived there though and was able to succeed.
The truth is my dad simply has every culture imaginable, and my mom's culture have Indonesian as Chinese-Indonesian is so cool! She was a fairer petite one, like from a fairytale if you can see it in that way.
Tim Burton can't find someone he more comfortable with. I think I have all the British ethnicities + German, French, and Dutch. The Chinese-Indonesian is influenced very much by the Dutch. I also have Native American indian, but sometimes they aren't sure if that's true. I did hear they made it up. It's nothing to worry about. I could do anything. I am thankful for who I am, though, and wouldn't have it any other way.
Being totally one thing seems to be a bigger gift. I notice the German, French, etc. people are quite quiet, though. I don't know what makes them talk. They think differently even if they are very Irish or English maybe.
That's too bad. I think Tim Burton and Johnny Depp realize I am the crème de la crème.
Piano
I started at 9 1|2, and I was told I was talented because I had the same songs at home as I did from piano lessons. Anyway, I grew up with good vibes. It's good to do if you're interested in dancing or singing, too. It's an efficient way to learn music just for yourself. I never thought I'd do it, but I so liked singing I did because I loved music so much, openly loved classical music. It is strange, but I got in organ since I sang in choir.
A Little Brother
I don't mean to rat, but he used to scratch me to be with our mom. I didn't really cling to anyone at that age. I thought I played with him to be nice because when he was little our mom would leave him somewhere and I'd be there and ended up playing with him. I still have a scar from when he scratched me and it left a line of blood. It seems almost as visible as my stitches and the same kind of scratch on the top of my hand from when I left an AP exam to use the restroom and scratched my hand on the wiring of some posters.
So, often people will notice my brother after they notice me and think it's safe, but it's not.. Maybe it is now, but he has his ways, with me and probably others. He seems to be adamant all the time on how his childhood was different than mine, but that's his own fault. He's never just positive and plows through. He doesn't seem to remember how good he has it.
So, often people will notice my brother after they notice me and think it's safe, but it's not.. Maybe it is now, but he has his ways, with me and probably others. He seems to be adamant all the time on how his childhood was different than mine, but that's his own fault. He's never just positive and plows through. He doesn't seem to remember how good he has it.
I didn't really grow up myself in the country.
I am used to the suburb. I live in small cities in a populated area. My dad gets jobs available in these areas. We live in the smaller cities for monetary purposes. I've never lived in a downtown area nor the main area. Jacksonville was in a county that consisted namely of it but a speck of another city on the side. I don't technically live in Orlando, but that's what it's called.
Lily-Rose Melody Depp
http://i1199.photobucket.com/albums/aa464/2011-05-03-1/2.jpg
http://i1199.photobucket.com/albums/aa464/2011-05-03-1/4277533712_24e2c8650c.jpg
She is so cute and looks so perfect. She's a beautiful little lady. She's 11 but reminds me of when I was 13 or 15. She must be many people's favorite person. She is a favorite person of mine, too. I like how she wears her hair cut slightly long and parted in the middle usually it seems. I notice Tim Burton and Johnny Depp's kids all have non-black hair but black-brown eyes. I guess that's the way to be. My eyes got brown recently rather than green, so I guess I am still changing.
http://i1199.photobucket.com/albums/aa464/2011-05-03-1/4277533712_24e2c8650c.jpg
She is so cute and looks so perfect. She's a beautiful little lady. She's 11 but reminds me of when I was 13 or 15. She must be many people's favorite person. She is a favorite person of mine, too. I like how she wears her hair cut slightly long and parted in the middle usually it seems. I notice Tim Burton and Johnny Depp's kids all have non-black hair but black-brown eyes. I guess that's the way to be. My eyes got brown recently rather than green, so I guess I am still changing.
Julie Andrews
http://news.yahoo.com/video/minneapoliswcco-15750988/student-s-persistance-prompts-visit-from-julie-andrews-25211973
That is so neat that she visited a random I presume high school. The students look effected very positively. She came to talk about arts education in public schools. There are religious schools that don't have music education available particularly into high school or junior high I imagine. Sometimes the other teachers make music class for them themselves I presume. It's good to do all you love most.
Julie Andrews looked very happy to come see them. I'm glad it rubbed off as a positive experience. The students seem young. My generation was in high school in the past and now are about doing jobs and things, I don't know where and what, though. I'm here and wish it was still high school. I'm willing to keep in contact with people, but I messed up and don't have any people who'd want to talk to me. I don't do much on Facebook, neither.
That is so neat that she visited a random I presume high school. The students look effected very positively. She came to talk about arts education in public schools. There are religious schools that don't have music education available particularly into high school or junior high I imagine. Sometimes the other teachers make music class for them themselves I presume. It's good to do all you love most.
Julie Andrews looked very happy to come see them. I'm glad it rubbed off as a positive experience. The students seem young. My generation was in high school in the past and now are about doing jobs and things, I don't know where and what, though. I'm here and wish it was still high school. I'm willing to keep in contact with people, but I messed up and don't have any people who'd want to talk to me. I don't do much on Facebook, neither.
Johnny Depp
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Z02cC8IfM6k
He seems to be doing very well. I am glad he is so involved in so many good projects.
I really look forward to this one: http://i1199.photobucket.com/albums/aa464/2011-05-03-1/DSpostermock.jpg
His acting skill is so good, the way he looks perfect for the roles he plays. This one is especially good. His hair also looks very good in this poster. He just cut it shorter, so I'm not sure what that means.
This one is going to be big. I will look for him at the awards.
He just looks so perfect. I like how he has his cane back from having one in Charlie and the Chocolate Factory, his especially very brilliant show. I like how he can borrow from his own films what he likes though he doesn't enjoy watching himself. He's in pretty good shape, though, so does a good job actually with the kinds of roles he's in.
He seems to be doing very well. I am glad he is so involved in so many good projects.
I really look forward to this one: http://i1199.photobucket.com/albums/aa464/2011-05-03-1/DSpostermock.jpg
His acting skill is so good, the way he looks perfect for the roles he plays. This one is especially good. His hair also looks very good in this poster. He just cut it shorter, so I'm not sure what that means.
This one is going to be big. I will look for him at the awards.
He just looks so perfect. I like how he has his cane back from having one in Charlie and the Chocolate Factory, his especially very brilliant show. I like how he can borrow from his own films what he likes though he doesn't enjoy watching himself. He's in pretty good shape, though, so does a good job actually with the kinds of roles he's in.
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